| BANANAS! DELICIOUS! |
[07 Dec 2009|10:18pm] |
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Been working at a call center for about 3 1/2 weeks
Nice to be employed again. Even if it is something I used to do when I was 18.
Still...I had enough funds to chip in for rent, groceries, and x-mas presents.
My manager asked me if I wanted more hours today
Think I'm going to take him up on that offer
I could use the money
Drake was sick last weekend
Jackie and I came home from the Slackers show and he was feverish
He slept downstairs with me on the couch, but kept fidgeting
I told him if he threw up he would feel better
He gave me a puzzled look, nodded, and walked to the bathroom to throw up in the toilet
I went in to make sure he made it in,and he turned around and threw up on my feet
It was awesome
He's doing better
He played outside with his friends yesterday
It was super cold this weekend
Even dipped down into the mid 20s
For south Texas...that's pretty severe
Woke up Saturday morning to icy cars
Some friends even said it "snowed" in some places!?
I bought the James & The Giant Peach movie yesterday
Drake couldn't get enough of it
He told me it was his new favorite
I loved that book when I was a kid
Shopping with Jackie is fun
Even if she drags me through the womens section of clothes at every store
But I get even by dragging her through all the toy aisles
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| The Weekend is OVER! |
[10 Nov 2009|12:49am] |
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Shred Savage : Somebody's In My Driveway |
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The Sword
7 Seconds
Les Savy Fav
Face To Face
The Jesus Lizard
D.R.I
The Gorilla Biscuits
Danzig
SmallTown
King Khan & BBQ Show
The Forgetters
Toys That Kill
ALL FOR FREE!!!
I think I caught Fun Fun Fun Fest AIDS
Today I had to take Drake to his new doctor
He got a flu shot & a vaccination shot
I also got him on the list for an H1N1 shot
They said they would call in about 2 weeks to bring him in
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| Fun Fun Fun Fest AfterShow Madness!!!! |
[07 Nov 2009|12:44am] |
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McRad : Ship |
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Toys That Kill (ex FYP)
The Forgetters (Blake Schwarzenbach of Jawbreaker/Jets to Brazil, Kevin of Against Me, Caroline of Bitchin'), Ghost Knife (ex J Church/Current Riverboat Gambler)
Smalltown (Sweden)
at Red 7 Austin
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| FFFFEst Sunday |
[05 Nov 2009|08:41pm] |
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The Huntingtons |
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* [black stage] Danzig (8:30-9:45), Gorilla Biscuits (7:40-8:25), D.R.I. (6:55-7:35), Torche (6:15-6:55), Riverboat Gamblers (5:35-6:10), Coalesce (4:50-5:30), Street Dogs (4:10-4:45), Youth Brigade (3:30-4:05), Mika Miko (2:55-3:25), Underground Railroad To Candyland (2:20-2:50), Off With Their Heads (1:45-2:15), Reign Supreme (1:10-1:40), Pack of Wolves (12:35-1:05), The Roller (12-12:30)
* [orange stage] Of Montreal (8:30-9:45), Crystal Castles (7:30-8:25), Mission of Burma (6:35-7:25), Lucero (5:40-6:30), Broadcast (4:45-5:35), WHY? (3:50-4:40), Atlas Sound (3:00-3:45), Fuck Buttons (2:15-2:55), This Will Destroy You (2:40-2:10), Black And White Years (1:05-1:35), Growing (12:30-1:00)
* [blue stage] Kid Sister (9-9:45), GZA/Genius (8-8:50), Buraka Som Sistema (7:05-7:50), HEALTH (6:05-6:50), DJ Nu-mark (5-5:55), Car Stereo Wars (4-4:50), Alaska In Winter (3:05-3:50), Astronautalis (2:25-2:55), The DJ Melee (1:30-2:20), Peligrosa DJs (12:15-1:30)
* [yellow stage] Whitest Kids U'Know (8:45-9:45), Brian Posehn (8-8:45), Josh Fadem (7:30-8), Chelsea Peretti (7:10-7:30), King Khan and BBQ (6:15-7), The Strange Boys (5:20-6), Brendan Walsh (4:40-5:05), Harlem (4-4:30), The comedy metal of METALLAGHER (3-3:40), Cedric Burnside & Lightning Malcolm (2-2:40), Bankrupt and the Borrowers (1-1:45), New Movement Comedy Troupe (12:30-1)
Show After The Fest!!!
Toys That Kill
The Forgetters (Blake Schwarzenbach of Jawbreaker/Jets to Brazil, Kevin of Against Me, Caroline of Bitchin')
Ghost Knife (ex J Church/current Riverboat Gamblers)
Smalltown (Sweden)
at Red 7 [+]
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| Looks Like I Might Be Going To FFFFEst On Saturday 11/7 |
[29 Oct 2009|07:23pm] |
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Jay Reatard : It Ain't Gonna Save Me |
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* [black stage] The Jesus Lizard (8:35-9:45), Face To Face (7:45-8:30), Fucked Up (6:55-7:40), 7 Seconds (6:05-6:50), Melt Banana (5:15-6), The Sword (4:25-5:10), Russian Circles (3:35-4:20), Nightmarchers (2:50-3:30), Young Widows (2:15-2:45), All Leather (1:40-2:10), Coliseum (1:05-1:35), Rat King (12:30-1)
* [orange stage] Ratatat (8:30-9:45), Les Savy Fav (7:35-8:25), Yeasayer (6:45-7:30), DEATH (6-6:40), No Age (5:10-5:55), Red Sparrowes (4:20-5:05), Shonen Knife (3:30-4:15), Times New Viking (2:40-3:25), Crystal Antlers (1:45-2:15), Royal Bangs (1:10-1:40), The Laughing (12:35-1:05)
* [blue stage] The Pharcyde (8:50-9:45), The Cool Kids (7:30-8:40), Neon Indian (6:35-7:20), SSION (5:35-6:20), MC Chris (4:35-5:20), VEGA (3:35-4:20), Foot Patrol (2:35-3:20), Sugar & Gold (1:50-2:20), LAX (1:05-1:35), Beta Player (12:20-12:50)
* [yellow stage] Destroyer (8:45-9:45), Shearwater (7:45-8:30), Todd Barry (6:45-7:30), Nick Thune (6:15-6:45), Dead Confederate (5:15-6), James Husband (4:15-5), Hannibal Burress (3:15-4), Altercation comedy hour (2:15-3:15), Onion Famewhore contest winner (2-2:15), Low Line Caller (1:15-1:45), Moonlight Towers (12:30-1)
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| He's In The Attic Stupid! |
[16 Oct 2009|12:48pm] |
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Schlong : Hurting Each Other |
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I really really want to see Where The Wild Things Are tonight
The Spine of the World kinda sucks. but I'm halfway through it
At this point I'm committed to finishing it
The apt complex let us out of our lease
Getting a storage unit is our next step
Looks like we're with my parents for a few months
Until they move to New Braunfels and then we'll take over payments on their place
I might have a job lined up at Valvoline in a few weeks
For all you people that eat talapia...why don't you just eat carp?
yuck!
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| Humbug |
[12 Oct 2009|10:17pm] |
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The BrokeDowns : That's A Bummer Man |
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My apartment flooded last weekend
A thunderstorm blew through San Antonio
5 inches of rain fell in less than 2 hours
So my GF and I are staying at my parents house
I have to talk to the insurance adjusters tomorrow
Apparently, if the water came in through the roof, I'll be recompensed
If the water came up through the floor, I will not
It makes no sense
Water came into my apartment and soaked everything in the living room
A few of my records were waterlogged as were a few of Drakes toys
Hopefully they will let us out of our lease
It's not a big deal...we only have one more month to go
Insurance companies are evil incarnate
My step-dad was hired in San Marcos
So they will be moving away in a few months
My gf and I will be taking over the payments on this house
In a weird way...things just might work out in our favor
I might get hired at Valvoline in afew weeks
Care of my gfs Father
Seems the only way to get a job these days is to have somebody you know open the door for you
Been reading R.A. Salvatore books for a few months
Almost finished with the Legacy of the Drow tetralogy
And then I'm going to start the Paths of Darkness tetralogy
It's pretty good reading...takes me back to those dateless days in high school
Much simpler days when I would hang out at the Tucker House and tabletop
Until Magic : The Gathering killed our campaigns
Most of the people I tabletopped with started playing the cards instead
So we quit rollin' the bones
Drake has started watching the Star wars movies
He's really into it...he fancies himself a Sith
Though he can't decide whether he wants to be Darth Maul or Darth Vader
Vader has been winning the past few weeks
He calls me Obi-Wan...it's kinda awesome
I was talking to my friend Mitch about the Star Wars books
He suggested I read the Han Solo trilogy by A.C. Crispin
I acquired them at half-Priced Books, but I haven't been able to read them yet
The Forgotten Realms books have me anchored in the world
Maybe I'll be able to break away from them in the near future, but I doubt it
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| 2-3-74 XP |
[30 Jun 2009|11:32pm] |
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Drake and I have been living with my girlfriend
And we have no internet or cable
It's surprisingly AWESOME
Visited Denver for a few weeks
Met her parents & stayed with them in Golden, Co (home of Coors beer)
Hiked up some mountains in White Ranch Park
Walked around Boulder
Soaked in Pagosa Springs
Hung out in bookstores (Kilgores in Denver RULES!)
She scored me a colored vinyl copy of The Mummies : Play Their Own Records at Wax Trax Record Store
She bought Drake the most awesome shirt ever
Had a snowball fight on the continental divide
Ate really awesome Nepalese food
Read the Legends of Dune prequel trilogy
Started strong, but puttered out by the middle of the second book
I recommend it to die-hards only
I'm Reading VALIS by Phillip K Dick which of course will be followed by The Divine Invasion
It was really nice to get out of Texas
I could get used to living in Denver if I ever had to move there
People are very pleasant and laid back...especially in Boulder
But I would really miss Mitch, Amanda, Manny, and my folks.
Who knows what the future holds in store for the likes of meh?
The air conditioner broke down at the apartment
So the three of us are staying at my parents until it gets fixed
I still haven't found a job though there are a few places I need to checkout tomorrow
Hopefully, with a little bit of searching and a whole lot of luck I will finally land one
Things have definitely changed for the better
Jackie is really big on eating right and taking vitamins
I actually weigh 153 pounds these days!
And we started running together when we have the time
She's a total busy-body. Sports two jobs, goes to school, lives on her own.
She totally makes me look bad hahaha
I'm happy and I feel loved and it's fucking awesome to feel ALIVE again
Drake & Jackie get along wonderfully...seriously they both make me swoon hard
Been a GREAT time to see some shows:
Angry Samoans, The Bent Gents in SATX
Leftmore in SATX
The Dopamines, BrickFight, Something Fierce, The Capitalist Kids, Stallone, JL&TM, Down Syndrom in SATX
Annihilation Time, Rumspringer, The Anchor in ATX
Clinton Fearon, Chris Murray, Zema, The Stingers ATX, Contra Coup in ATX
The Aggrolites, River City All Stars, Channel One in SATX
Dillinger Four, The Brokedowns, Japanther in Denver, CO
The Dendrites, The Repercussions (CO) in Denver, CO
Screeching Weasel, The SweetHearts, Stymie in ATX
The Sharks, No Call No Show in SATX
Leftover Crack, DJ Omari in ATX
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| 10 Songs About HATE! |
[07 May 2009|05:58pm] |
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The Stingers : Wonderful World |
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1)Blood For Blood : Ain't Like You
2)Pinhead Gunpowder : At Your Funeral
3)Deicide : Forever Hate You
4)Tupac : Hit 'Em Up
5)FEAR : I Don't Care About You! (Fuck You)
6)Rapid Rick & Trae : Shut It Down
7)Geto Boys : What!?
8)Trae : A Couple Grand
9)The Smiths : Unhappy Birthday
10)Cannibal Corpse : Fucked With A Knife
Honorable Mention : Any song by Anal Cunt
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[05 May 2009|09:18pm] |
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Chuck Ragan : For Your Ears Only |
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my friend Carrie is getting her old band back together
they are playing a reunion show in el valluco (the rio grande valley)
which made me think about how fun punk rock shows were down there when I was younger & how involved we all were making sure it stayed crazy & fun. Talking to Mitch the other day, he started talking about how involved the women were in the 90s especially in the punk rock scene : riot grrl, and tweepop to be exact. Which made me reflect on how exciting & infectious those sub-sects were. And how much we both miss the energy, literature, and music of those lost times. South Texas has never been much for progressive thinking. It is a total punk rock boys club...these days bordering on lame dudebroisms, misogyny, and downright sexist behavior. And it makes me think how it affects the social chain of events as well. I used to read a lot more about what was going on in other cities through riot grrl zine trading. I could live vicariously through them while in high school, to keep my mind off the cess pool of lameness I was stuck in. Now this might get me in trouble, but it seems that a lot of guys in this general region involved with punk rock, metal, and hardcore like to treat their women pretty shitty. As if the only way they have to feel like a man, is to do their best to keep their woman down or even submissive. And maybe it's the culture of South Texas? Maybe it's the way people are brought up? But there's nothing more beautiful then a strong woman not held back by some stupid man's shortcomings. A strong woman can invigorate you, inspire you, make you realize that the impossible is indeed possible.
And it really doesn't take much for a guy to "run on tilt" as it were
Maybe a woman might want to date somebody outside her social circle
Which makes the other guys jealous (i get this)
So she is ostracized and defriended because she might be able to find happiness somewhere other than the core group she came out of.
It's not very progressive for her or the core group she's a part of.
Separatism in a small "scene" is like cutting your own legs off with a machete.
I remember it happening to my friend Carrie when she met somebody else. Somebody that she felt a real connection with and eventually ended up marrying and starting a beautiful family with. And I know sometimes she struggles fighting the good fight, but I shudder to think what would've happened if she stayed in South Texas. You have to fight hard for what you really think you want in life and that goes for relationships tophat. Plus, I met an amazing person that is her husband that got me thinking in different ways after hanging out with him. And then I knew that she really did make the right decision, because he was a stand-up guy with a big heart.
So bringing this back around to your selfish narrator
I'm having to deal with my new girl's psycho ex boyfriend
Seems out of the 5 girls he was chatting up, I took the one he most wanted
Are you feeling for this dude yet? Just wait it gets better.
So he was messaging my girl about 20 times an hour, and blowing up both of our phones. Trying his best to "get her back in the fold". Basically trying to make her feel like shit, by playing the poor me I'm going to kill myself victim. Hope he goes down the block and not across the street if he does off himself by cutting. But I'm not writing this to be really nasty. Just to put things in my own crazy-ass perspective.
I was getting sick of this happening when we would go to shows together or try to have lunch. Luckily, my ex wife & her girlfriend helped put a stop to it. Yes you read that right. And I'll forever be in debt to them. But I don't mind. Again...stand up people make it all worthwhile to live and struggle through this stupid life
The ex/dudebro books shows in the area, and even tried to ban us both from going to shows. I guess he thinks that he's an authority in the punk rock music biz even though he's coming off like some scorned whiny scene prom king. Not that I'm too worried about some Johnny-Come-Lately kicking me out of "punk rock".
At this point I like to believe that I'm a franchise player...even if I'm on the bench most of the time. I've learned to live with that. It's much more rewarding doing things within your collective without all the pats-on-the-back, and the accolades that start to give you a big ego and start some premature jading process.
Can you really find love with somebody that has mud flap girls on his body?
Or listens to Avenged Sevenfold? Ugggggggg!
So he's convinced/manipulated most of my girlfriends old chums turn their backs on her.
And for what?
Because she's dating somebody outside her social circle?
Because she was tired of competing with other girls?
Because I'm a big meanie that makes fun of his kid rock looking ass?
All of the above?
With all his wasted efforts spent on distracting me from my lovely goal
All it has done has made Jackie and I fall for each other even harder
So in that respect....thank you Little Nicky
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| for j |
[26 Apr 2009|03:34am] |
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I'm not the most romantic guys,
No, I'm not the one she wants.
But now the night's here and the mood is right,
And the music has just begun.
You said you liked me just as a friend,
You never thought the other way.
Well I said there's nothing wrong with that,
But you never know what could change.
So won't you dance with me, dance with me,
And take my hand, and take a walk with me, walk with me,
I think you're gonna be the one baby, one baby,
I gotta make you understand.
(One Two Three Four)
You went to go dance with your man,
I thought I'd never see you again.
The club was crowded and dark,
But just to my luck you looked at me, I asked for your hand.
Now, I can't explain it, it's my timing and you know that it's true.
But then I turned away I finally got to say, here it goes,
So won't you dance with me, dance with me,
And take my hand, and take a walk with me, walk with me,
I think you're gonna be the one baby, one baby,
I gotta make you understand.
So won't you dance with me, dance with me,
And take my hand, and take a walk with me, walk with me,
I think you're gonna be the one baby, one baby,
I gotta make you understand.
I'm not the most romantic guy,
No I'm not the on she wants.
But now the night's here and the mood is right,
And the music has just begun.
Now I can't explain it, it's my timing and you know that it's true
But then I turned away I finally got to say, here it goes,
So won't you dance with me, dance with me,
And take my hand, and take a walk with me, walk with me,
I think you're gonna be the one baby, one baby,
I gotta make you understand, that I'm seeing.
So won't you dance with me, dance with me,
And take my hand, and take a walk with me, walk with me,
I think you're gonna be the one baby, one baby,
I gotta make you understand.
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| I Never Grew Up To Be A Pirate! I Chose To Be A Lost Boy! |
[25 Apr 2009|03:49pm] |
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"Part of the nature of punk is celebrating your flaws, parading your idiosyncrasies.
Bringing out your best & worst qualities and seeing which will destroy you faster.
Punk is all about taking things to an extreme.
For me, the excitement & conflict of it is trying to find an extreme that you can sustain.
Walking right on the edge without falling off.
For alot of other people it's differant.
It's all about getting to the edge so they can jump off, or more often,
so they can beat a hasty retreat & then brag knowingly about how they'd been there once.
I go slow & steady and people are always passing me by, laughing about how cautious and uptight I am.
Then they pass me again on their way back.
I want to embrace life in ALL it's extremes, but when the people I'm with push far too fast, I can get worried & resentful.
We weren't after the same thing after all.
My road is just a shortcut for them on the way to total self destruction
Or a stopover before they turn back and settle down and stop moving at all.
In their race to the edge
In order to jump over or turn back,
they take me with them and waste the energy that I need for the long run."
-----Aaron Eliot aka Cometbus taken from the book Double Deuce
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| A Jingle For The Product |
[22 Apr 2009|03:15pm] |
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There were times when we raised our fists to the world
Ready to crush opposition
And there were times when we lied like thieves in disguise
And I'm remembering those times too
We never had a chance but we made our plans 'til they were blown apart
We watched it all crash around our feet and man it broke my heart
We took it day by day and never thought for once those days were gonna end
I got what I wanted when I think about it but I miss my friends
Accidents or accusations i got my fucking reasons
And even hearts of gold can overload
When they've lost what they believed in
When the seams start to come apart
In this frustration we find our salvation
I've fallen flat on my face more than once in this race
It didn't stop me from trying
I did my best at least but I get no peace
When I'm holding the shortest straw
We never had a chance but we made our plans 'til they were blown apart
We watched it all crash around our feet and man it broke my heart
We took it day by day and never thought for once those days were gonna end
I got what i wanted when i think about it but i miss my friends
Accidents or accusations i got my fucking reasons
And even hearts of gold can overload
When they've lost what they believed in
When the seams start to come apart
In this frustration we find our salvation
In this frustration we find our salvation
In this frustration we find our salvation
Separate everyday a little more from the things we start
Well I won't forget my part
Well I won't forget my part
In the end what you want is much different from what you choose
Yeah, it's bigger than me and you
It's bigger than me and, than me and you.
Wa-Oh
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[22 Apr 2009|06:09am] |
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these restless eyes stay open
the sands of sleep escape my grasp
to stay awake and bleed sadness
brushing the knife
the steel knows truth
wisdom?
a scar without a wound
the keys to unlock the trapdoor
gutter lore spat backwards
cowardice stays the intent
loneliness is an uncommon vice
that reverberating hum
crudely holding together
the pieces of a shattered life
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| c u ltr |
[16 Apr 2009|05:46pm] |
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I wish I knew people that wanted to hang out with me
Nobody ever comes by to say "hi"
Nobody ever comes by to spin records
I want to move away pretty soon
Like within the next year
I'm sick of being lonely and having to initiate ALL contact
I'm sick of Texas
And I HATE living in San Antonio
This place sucks so bad!
The people suck even worse!
I've been applying for jobs that will relocate me if I want
Seems like a GREAT idea
This place just reminds me of the stupid Valley anyway
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| donkeys live a loooong time |
[13 Apr 2009|11:33pm] |
"Benjamin was the only animal who did not side with either faction. He refused to believe that either food would become more plentiful or that the windmill would save work. Windmill or no windmill, he said, life would go on as it had always gone on--that is, badly."
"Only old Benjamin professed to remember every detail of his long life and to know that things never had been, nor ever could be much better or worse--hunger, hardship, and disappointment being, so he said, the unalterable law of life."
-----George Orwell
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| lolercaust |
[13 Apr 2009|08:25pm] |
"What I hate is thought of being under a man's thumb," I had told Doctor Nolan. "A man doesn't have a worry in the world, while I've got a baby hanging over my head like a big stick, to keep me in line"
----Sylvia Plath
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[07 Apr 2009|06:37pm] |
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"That is the thankless position of the father in the family-the provider for all, and the enemy of all."
---- J. August Strindberg
MY PERSONAL FAVORITE!
No man can possibly
know what life means, what the
world means, until he has a child and loves it. And
then the whole universe changes
and nothing will ever again seem
exactly as it seemed before.
----- Lafcadio Hearn
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| broad generalizations |
[06 Apr 2009|08:44pm] |
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I hate the fact that, most of the time, a person who sticks to his kids and tries to be a good parent is pretty much shit on by the status quo. Like I'm some sort of awkward motherfucker because I'm a single Father. I used to think people were so wrong when they said, "You'll find out who your real friends are when you have kids"
And then I had a one, and most of my so-called friends shuffled right the fuck off
BUT...and here's what fucks me up in the head...
If you abandon or abort your child...you might as well be a fucking hero these days
How can a person possibly have a chance when these savages reign supreme
I would never give up my son...I would die for HIM
Next time you think about killing your kids or abandoning them...do the world a favor
Off yourself instead...We, that raise the kids, will gladly breathe your air
Since when did the majority of people associated with the Young Lions Conspiracy become overrun by mods and not so many bluesmen??
Seriously? Was that the end result goal?
Sorry...that's not what I had in mind
I'd rather be a soul-less git than be a mod
And maybe I am a soul-less git but I doubt it
And though the teachings of the YLC have taught me about music and roots
It's time to move on and let it go
If a community does not accept you for who you are then maybe it wasn't really for you in the first place
I'm nothing but a fan-boy to those people anyway
Just some outcast that doesn't fit in.
No more conventions for this Rat.
"Conventions are fealty and honesty gone to waste,
They are the entrance of disorder.
False teachers of life use flowery words
And start nonsense.
The man of stamina stays with the root
Below the tapering,
Stays with the fruit
Beyond the flowering:
He has his no and he has his yes."
*EDIT* I have nothing against mods, punks, punx, jaks or whatever category you decide fits for you. I just think it's a waste of time aspiring to be when I GUARANTEE that you can come up with something better on your own. Something nobody else has done. Something unique to you and yours....
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20)
Leave off fine learning!
End the nuisance
Of saying yes to this and perhaps to that,
Distinctions with how little difference!
Categorical this, categorical that,
What slightest use are they!
If one man leads, another must follow,
How silly that is and how false!
Yet conventional men lead an easy life
With all their days feast-days,
A constant spring visit to the Tall Tower,
While I am a simpleton, a do-nothing,
Not big enough yet to raise a hand,
Not grown enough to smile,
A homeless, worthless waif.
Men of the world have a surplus of goods,
While I am left out, owning nothing.
What a booby I must be
Not to know my way round,
What a fool!
The average man is so crisp and confident
That I ought to be miserable
Going on and on like the sea,
Drifting nowhere.
All these people are making their mark in the world,
While I, pig-headed, awkward,
Different from the rest,
Am only a glorious infant still nursing at the breast.
81)
Real words are not vain,
Vain words not real;
And since those who argue prove nothing
A sensible man does not argue.
A sensible man is wiser than he knows.
While a fool knows more than is wise.
Therefore a sensible man does not devise resources:
The greater his use to others
The greater their use to him,
The more he yields to others
The more they yield to him.
The way of life cleaves without cutting:
Which, without need to say,
Should be man’s way.
38)
A man of sure fitness, without making a point of his fitness,
Stays fit;
A man of unsure fitness, assuming an appearance of fitness,
Becomes unfit.
The man of sure fitness never makes an act of it
Nor considers what it may profit him;
The man of unsure fitness makes an act of it
And considers what it may profit him.
However a man with a kind heart proceed,
He forgets what it may profit him;
However a man with a just mind proceed,
He remembers what it may profit him;
However a man of conventional conduct proceed, if he be not complied with
Out goes his fist to enforce compliance.
Here is what happens:
Losing the way of life, men rely first on their fitness;
Losing fitness, they turn to kindness;
Losing kindness, they turn to justness;
Losing justness, they turn to convention.
Conventions are fealty and honesty gone to waste,
They are the entrance of disorder.
False teachers of life use flowery words
And start nonsense.
The man of stamina stays with the root
Below the tapering,
Stays with the fruit
Beyond the flowering:
He has his no and he has his yes.
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